I work at a college, and whenever I use the rest room, I see signs with
information about getting help if you are being abused. I'm a compulsive
reader. So when I wash my hands in front of these signs, I read them, and I
think. Society is so concerned about saving women from abusive men, but I
rarely hear talk about the reverse. It may be more common for men to be the
abusers because their bodies tend to be bigger, but that doesn't mean women
are never the abusers. I wrote this story to raise awareness about the fact
that men can be victims to and society doesn't make it easy for them to get
help.
Sara Codair lives in a world of words, writing fiction in every free
moment, teaching writing at a community college and binge-reading fantasy
novels. When not lost in words, Sara can often be found hiking, swimming,
or gardening. Find Sara's words in Helios Quarterly, Secrets of the Goat
People, The Centropic Oracle, at
https://saracodair.com/ and
@shatteredsmooth.
The mirror was cloudy
and cracked, but it still
managed to capture
Cora's reflection: sallow
skin, honey hair and
sunken eyes.
She
wondered how many
women had stared in that
mirror before her,
considered their
reflections, and read the
diminutive, yellow sign
asking them if they felt
safe in their relationship.
Below it hung a strip of
paper containing a list of
questions designed to
help a woman determine
if her partner was
abusive.
Cora read them
like prayer, considering
each one carefully. Miguel
never threatened her, hit
her or put her down, but
not everyone was so
sweet.
Questions wafted
through her exhausted
mind like cloying incense
clogging church air on a
high holy day:
How many women
actually called the
number on the bottom?
How many escaped their
abusers?
What would the phone
operators say if I
confessed my sins to
them?
Over the past month,
there had been twelve
instances where she'd
almost hit Miguel. This
morning, she hadn't been
able to stop herself from
calling him a dick-headed
idiot after he told her she
looked hot in her red
dress. She threw the
dress after her insults and
went to work in sweat
pants and a t-shirt.
After confirming she was
alone, she began her daily
devotion, whispering
questions to her crackled
likeness, replacing 'you'
with 'him' and 'does
your' with 'do you' as
she went:
'Do you hit, shove or
push him?'
No, not unless you count
elbowing him in the gut
because he wouldn't stop
tickling me, or throwing a
spatula at him because he
was in my way when I was
trying to bake.
'Do you threaten him with
physical violence?'
No. Maybe. I did throw a
dress at him this morning.
I may have said that the
next time he objectified
my body, I would throw
something heavier, but I
didn't specifically say I
would throw it at him, so I
wasn't threatening him,
not exactly.
'Do you threaten his
family or children?'
We don't have any
children. I love his sister.
However, his mother, well,
that woman doesn't know
how to shut her mouth
and mind her own
damned business. One of
these days, I might loose
it and break her nose, but
I don't recall uttering
anything of that nature to
Miguel. He thinks I love
the crone.
'Do you insult or degrade
him?'
Does 'Dick-headed idiot
count?' If it does, I guess
I insult him, but only when
he really deserves it. I
mean, isn't objectifying
me a form of
degradation' He started
it.
'Do you use his
immigration status
against him?'
No. Just because his
name is Hispanic doesn't
mean he isn't American.
His mother is a different
story. If I could get that
bitch deported, I would
do it in a second.
'Do you try to keep him
away from family or
friends?'
No. Just last night, I told
him to take his mother out
to dinner. I had to attend
a lecture, so I knew I
wouldn't have to listen to
her criticism.
Cora walked out of the
bathroom smiling. She
wasn't abusive yet.
Before she turned the
corner into a conference
room that housed her
sociology seminar, she
glanced back at the
bathroom door,
wondering if similar signs
were present in the men's
room where Miguel
worked. She suspected
that if she were guilty of
abuse, she would deny it
like St. Peter denied
Christ.