“Infatuation” was about my having feelings for a woman who was involved in a complicated relationship with another woman. She loved hard but also desperately wanted to let go. They were together for more than ten years, so it was very hard for her to do so. As I became her interest and she started to gain feelings for me, I was enjoying her but also not ready for what she wanted to offer, being that I was younger, and had my mind on other things. I honestly really was not understanding what she or I wanted from each other. The poem was about us always sneaking to hold conversations, having our own fake emails, our own meet up destinations, I mean the whole 9 yards. To this very day I kept my promise and no one in our group knows we even knew each other. Shame our circle never knew. We had something in the lines of Eric Roberson and Lalah Hathaway's song Dealing without the getting caught part. Infatuation was about not only our physical or mental attraction to one another but also our intimate attraction. Infatuation came about her offering and my finally taking a trip to another state to meet up with her but what was supposed to be for a few days became only for one night. After engagements and her finally almost getting caught I decided to detach myself slowly from the situation because it was becoming way too much to bear. I could not see myself as number two nor gaining feelings for someone who was unsure. Then when she was finally free I was not anymore. To this day I still remember her and I still think of her but I let those be pleasant memories. I recently spoke to her and she is doing well. She said wowwww thanks for thinking of me and remembering my Birthday. Thanks for contacting me to say Happy Birthday to me My Blast from the past. I could not do anything but smile. Sweet Sweet Memories that I will forever cherish deep in my heart. I do know that if ever the world turns and guide us both in the same direction once again, I will be there for her Time after Time.
Shanquita (Q Poetik) Williams is a working professional, a spoken word artist, and an aspiring model. She helps people to get in touch with who they really are through expressing her feelings through her Spoken Word performances and her writings.
Shanquita (Q Poetik) Williams has always enjoyed writing poetry, music, and modeling. In fact, by the time she was 10, she had already won a modeling, talent, and fashion show contest. At the age of 12 she won a contest for a poem to be published in a news article in her state. Soon afterwards, Shanquita began to always focus on her writing skills, her fashion styles, and her music. Now she is working with a company to enhance her talents to become known around the world.
My favorite part of Spoken Word is being able to express myself and inspiring others to do the same. Writing allows me to get in tune with my true feelings, to release my words instead of holding it all in, and overcome my fears of speaking out freely. Also, meeting new people who enjoy writing and reciting can be a lot of fun!
